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Transition Timeline – 15 months HRT

Hey guys today marks exactly 15 months on HRT so I figured I’d celebrate with…you guessed it, a timeline!

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X-mas 2014.

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April 2015. This is officially the last picture of me ever with a beard.

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May 2015. I decided to start transition. I knew basically nothing about makeup or how to dress myself. Early days of experimentation.

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September 1 – 2015 – Day 1 of HRT!

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October 2015 – second month of HRT

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November 2015 – third month of HRT

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December 2015 – fourth month of HRT

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January 2016 – fifth month of HRT

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February 2016 – sixth month of HRT

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March 2016 – 7th month of HRT

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April 2016 – 8th month of HRT. Got my name legally changed!

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May 2016 – 9th month of HRT. Really starting to get into makeup more. This is one of the first pictures of myself I truly loved. I felt so on point that day.

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June 2016 – tenth month of HRT.

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July 2016 – 11th month of HRT.

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August 2016 – 12th month of HRT

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September 2016 – 13th month of HRT. I got my hair highlighted!

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October 2016 – 14th month of HRT. Met my current girlfriend.

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November 2016 – 15th month of HRT. Started injectables!

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November 27 2016

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Decemeber 1 2016 – Today! Got my second shot of estrogen. Finally bought a choker like a real trans girl.

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Metal Me vs. New Me

 

On the left: Me, in 2009, age 22, when I was at LSU doing a Masters in Philosophy. I was definitely going for the metalhead/white Jesus look.

On the right: Me, today, age 29, without any makeup, 9.5 months into Hormone Replacement Therapy, with 8 sessions of laser hair removal under my belt. 6th year PhD student at Wash U St Louis’ philosophy-neuroscience-psychology program.

It’s super weird looking at old pictures of myself. I recognize myself but at the same time I don’t recognize myself. I understand who I was in the past because I have memories of those times. I even partly still identify with that old person because we both share many of the same core values and beliefs. I’m still as atheistic as ever. I still have a philosophical disposition to question everything. I still love blogging and writing. I still love my long hair (though now I take much better care of it). We both still love metal. I am still disposed to occasional bouts of psychosis.┬áStill a Zen Buddhist at heart. Still love cannabis (though I recently quit smoking). I am still very much a utilitarian at heart (though I’ve grown to be more deontological with a focus on autonomy).

But now I’m a much better feminist than I ever was. I am a better humanist too. I have a better appreciation of the true diversity of humanity, the wonder of humanity, the darkside of humanity. I have discovered a newfound solidarity with the LGBT community, especially with my trans femme sisters. I have found new purpose in life. My career ambitions have changed. I am focused more on my relationships (sounds sexist, but it’s true – gender transition made me care less about getting a tenure-track professorship and I realize I would be happy doing almost anything so long as I have the time to enjoy my relationships and write). I have a newfound love of makeup and beauty culture though I am approaching that whole culture with a skeptical but appreciative eye.

I’m both the same person and a whole new person. I changed my gender, which changed my brain at every level, but I still have a psychological connection to my past. My past as a “man” shaped who I am as a person and I will always be grateful to that man for not fucking things up too bad to get me where I am today, a very privileged, well-adjusted, confident, and happy trans woman in her late twenties.

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